Psychology of Adjustment

What can I say about my class? Each day when I walk out the door I am a little more depressed. I am learning more about my low self-esteem, that I am an introvert. I need to change myself a lot and that is depressing. I am too old for all these changes in my life, but that seems to be what I am finding out in this class. The teacher is great, she is funny and upbeat, but I have come to dread those hand-outs. We answer questions about ourselves. I don't like learning about myself. I would rather be kept in the dark about why I am the way I am.

I ended up in this class by accident. I am planning on getting an associates degree in Medical Office Management (MOM). I started taking classes before my job ended thinking I would have a head start and maybe going to school wouldn't be so hard on me. It seems that was the wrong thing to do. Since I got the head start our advisor had to put me in an enhancement class. I am going to school through a government program TAA and I am required to be in school during the summer too. If I am out of school over 30 days I will lose my benefits. I know I have probably lost your interest by now, I have run all over the place with this. Anyhoo....where was I? Oh yes, I am in this class by accident (or maybe not, maybe I needed this) I still don't know what to make of the class. I hope it will make an improvement on my personality. I want to be more outgoing and I want to think more positive about myself.

So now I am startting a blog, about my boring life, at age 56 going back to school.