Better some day

I promise to get better at blogging in the future

Another week gone by...still struggling with Psychology. I do not like taking all these questionares to answer things about myself. We have an assignment to turn in Monday. We are supposed to say what kind of attachment we are and name 5 events in our lifetime that made us that way. She is being very lenient by giving us an example and if we want to use this example and figure out what kind of attachment Gomer has and make up the events in his life that made him that way, so that is the way I am going. I have to be honest, my husband helped me get started. I was totally blank on how to get started. I am that way a lot, but once I get started I can usually go from there. I actually enjoyed myself once I was past the starting point. I have the same problem with essays. Anyhoo...I have that done and I hope it is done right. We will have a test on Tuesday and I am not at all prepared for it. I need to study my notes a lot, but don't see the point until Monday night. I know myself well enough to know that after a couple of days I will forget what I have studied. I find this class to be full of useless crap. I guess if I was going for some kind of degree in psychology I might find it interesting but so far I think it just a way to blame someone else for your actions. I do not believe in blaming someone else for my actions. I know the events in our lifetime to do make us the way we are, but I will not blame others for my mistakes. I wish I could blame someone else for some of my really stupid mistakes but unfortunately they are all mine. oh well, enough about that.
It has been a good week, but I am worn out. I had the little munchkin until Wed. night. He is precious but I am up and down constantly getting something for the little whiner. I can see why we are supposed to have our children while we are young, I couldn't handle a baby at my age, but if push come to shove I would take him in a heart beat I would just be worn out for the rest of my life..
Oh by the way we are watching this very interesting show about how pencils are made...

I am sitting in my bed with Chelsey Lately on the television and I have my laptop on my lap. I am excited. I have started a blog. How cool is that? Me boring me has started a blog. You know I might become interesting in the latter part of my life, not there yet, but my life is definitely turning around. Now if I can just keep that one-fourth crazy part out of this blog we will all be happy. By the way my z is working now. Don't know what kind of glitch I had earlier but it would not work. I guess I could go back and edit that part of the blog but heck that would just be boring wouldn't it and I am on the highway to a little place I like to call interesting. So much for the first day of my blog. I am calling it a night....

Just trying out some things on this blogger thingie. You know this is supposed to be about my thoughts on going back to school, but who knows I will probably write whatever comes into my head, isn't that what a journal is all about?

Psychology of Adjustment

What can I say about my class? Each day when I walk out the door I am a little more depressed. I am learning more about my low self-esteem, that I am an introvert. I need to change myself a lot and that is depressing. I am too old for all these changes in my life, but that seems to be what I am finding out in this class. The teacher is great, she is funny and upbeat, but I have come to dread those hand-outs. We answer questions about ourselves. I don't like learning about myself. I would rather be kept in the dark about why I am the way I am.

I ended up in this class by accident. I am planning on getting an associates degree in Medical Office Management (MOM). I started taking classes before my job ended thinking I would have a head start and maybe going to school wouldn't be so hard on me. It seems that was the wrong thing to do. Since I got the head start our advisor had to put me in an enhancement class. I am going to school through a government program TAA and I am required to be in school during the summer too. If I am out of school over 30 days I will lose my benefits. I know I have probably lost your interest by now, I have run all over the place with this. Anyhoo....where was I? Oh yes, I am in this class by accident (or maybe not, maybe I needed this) I still don't know what to make of the class. I hope it will make an improvement on my personality. I want to be more outgoing and I want to think more positive about myself.

So now I am startting a blog, about my boring life, at age 56 going back to school.